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I Wish

I wish I had computer chips in my brains so that I can remember everything

I wish I had the heart of a saint so that I can be good to everyone

I wish I am a genius so that I can solve any problem

I wish I had wings so that I can fly away from it all

I wish I had a switch so that I can turn my feelings on and off

I wish I am perfect so that I can do everything right

I wish I lived in a perfect world so that all I have wished for will come true.

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Time Machine


Kung may time machine ako, babalikan ko ang aking PAGKABATA kung kailan:

nasasaktan lamang ako kapag nadadapa tuwing nakikipaglaro

kumakain ako hangga’t gusto ko

masaya na ako sa isang plastik na luto-lutuan

namamasyal ako kasama ng buong pamilya ko

hindi ko kailangang intindihin ang pagbabayag ng credit card

hindi ako nag-aalala sa aking pasyente

hindi ko kailangang magdesisyon kung saan ba ako dapat

Babalalik ako sa aking pagkabata kung kailan hindi kailangang isipin kung ano ang tama at mali.

Babalik ako sa aking pagkabata kung kailan hindi kumplikado ang buhay.

Kung may time machine ako, lilipad ako dun sa panahong alam ko na ang lahat ng sagot sa aking mga katanungan.

Babalik ako dun sa panahong masasabi kong “Ah, a job well done, a life well lived!”

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A belated Father’s day letter

Dear Papa,

Another Father’s Day has passed but I still wish I could do something really special for you. All my life, you have been giving us soooo much and sometimes I feel like we do not give you much in return. You have always been a very good provider, telling us not to worry and to leave it all up to you when things get tough. I couldn’t help but worry when I see you slaving on your computer all day like the whole world is on your shoulders. Although essentially, it is true, OUR world is practically on your shoulders! Sometimes I wish I can lift up the weight even for just a little while but I am just not as equipped as you are to do that. I am trying hard to help you in my own way I can but I know it isn’t enough.

I can’t even thank you enough for allowing yourself to think of letting me spread my wings out of your watchful eyes. I know how hard it is for you to do so. I know I am hurting you by contemplating to take another path, but you still support me. I know that in your heart, you’re only doing this because you know this is what I want and that this will make me happy. You may not say it but I know you can see the turmoil in my eyes. You may not say it in so many words but I know you understand. Yet you still tell me that I can come back to you if everything do not turn out as I want it to be. Such selfless love!
I want so much to tell you a lot of things. Many times I wish I was still your little girl who can tell you everything but I am not little anymore. There are just things that I couldn’t tell you and I hope you understand that. Many times I wish I can just run to you and cry myself out on your lap but I couldn’t because I don’t want you to worry about me.

I wish we can celebrate Father’s Day together forever. I am praying that God will continuously bless you and Mama with good health so that we all can be together as long as we can. I am so looking forward to the day when I can give you back everything you have given us. I know you’re not asking that from me but if I can give back even just half of what you have given us unconditionally, I will die happy.

I love you very much Papa. Here’s to more Father’s Day celebrations together!

Your original little girl,

Nikki

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From My Inbox

I just want to share with you this email. I was teary eyed while reading this. I too am guilty of the “binge” part but only as a joke within the family. But still…

 Sa Aking Pagtanda

Sa aking pagtanda, unawain mo sana ako at pagpasensyahan. Kapag dala ng kalabuan ng mata ay nakabasag ako ng pinggan o nakatapon ng sabaw sa hapag kainan, huwag mo sana akong kagagalitan. Maramdamin ang isang matanda. Nagse-self-pity ako sa tuwing sisigawan mo ako.

Kapag mahina na ang tenga ko at hindi ko maintindihan ang sinasabi mo, huwag mo naman sana akong sabihan ng “binge!” paki-ulit nalang ang sinabi mo o pakisulat nalang. Pasensya ka na, anak. Matanda na talaga ako.

Kapag mahina na tuhod ko, pagtiyagaan mo sana akong tulungang tumayo, katulad ng pag-aalalay ko sa iyo noong nag-aaral ka pa lamang lumakad.

Pagpasensyahan mo sana ako kung ako man ay nagiging makulit at paulit ulit na parang sirang plaka. Basta pakinggan mo nalang ako. Huwag mo sana akong pagtatawanan o pagsasawaang pakinggan. Natatandaan mo anak noong bata ka pa? kapag gusto mo ng lobo,paulit-ulit mo ‘yong sasabihin, maghapon kang mangungulit hangga’t hindi mo nakukuha ang gusto mo. Pinagtyagaan ko ang kakulitan mo.

Pagpasensyahan mo na rin sana ang aking amoy. Amoy matanda, amoy lupa. Huwag mo sana akong piliting maligo. Mahina na ang katawan ko. Madaling magkasakit kapag nalamigan, huwag mo sana akong pandirihan. Natatandaan mo noong bata ka pa? Pinagtyagaan kitang habulin sa ilalim ng kama kapag ayaw mong maligo.

Pagpasensyahan mo sana kung madalas, ako’y masungit, dala na marahil ito ng katandaan. Pagtanda mo, maiintindihan mo rin.

Kapag may konti kang panahon, magkwentuhan naman tayo, kahit sandali lang. inip na ako sa bahay, maghapong nag-iisa. Walang kausap. Alam kong busy ka sa trabaho, subalit nais kong malaman mo na sabik na sabik na akong makakwentuhan ka, kahit alam kong hindi ka interesado sa mga kwento ko. Natatandaan mo anak, noong bata ka pa? Pinagtyagaan kong pakinggan at intindihin ang pautal-utal mong kwento tungkol sa iyong teddy bear.

At kapag dumating ang sandali na ako’y magkakasakit at maratay sa banig ng karamdaman, huwag mo sana akong pagsawaan alagaan. Pagpasensyahan mo na sana kung ako man ay maihi o madumi sa higaan, pagtyagaan mo sana akong alagaan sa mga huling sandali ng aking buhay. Tutal hindi na naman ako magtatagal.

Kapag dumating ang sandali ng aking pagpanaw, hawakan mo sana ang aking kamay at bigyan mo ako ng lakas ng loob na harapin ang kamatayan.

At huwag kang mag-alala, kapag kaharap ko na ang Diyos na lumikha, ibubulong ko sa kanya na pagapalain ka sana … dahil naging mapagmahal ka sa iyong ama’t ina…

-Written by Rev. Fr. Ariel F. Robles
CWL Spiritual Director
St. Augustine Parish
Baliuag, Bulacan

I love you Mama & Papa. I hope you both know that.

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For A Beloved Shih Tzu

Toni

 

I fought for you even before I saw you.

When I caught a glimpse of you for the

first time, I was hooked!

You were so cute and well-behaved sitting amidst

the chaos of your litter.

 

For four years you were an important part of our lives.

Elegant, queenly, intelligent!

But you have decided to leave us suddenly,

and left our hearts broken.

Even in death, you were so prim and proper.

 

We know you are in doggie heaven now.

We just wish we could’ve said goodbye to you.

I wish we loved you more than we do.

 

We’re going to miss you Toni!

You will forever be in our hearts.

 

 

In Memoriam:

Empire X Nissa of Subzero (Toni)

May 21, 2002 – January 1, 2007

 

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